The Truth
G.S. Wiley

Anthony Holland is quite different. He is the flashy, handsome field spy, the kind of man on which James Bond was based, and he's all too aware of his appeal. John hates him on sight. It's a one-sided hatred, though, and Holland soon makes his attraction to John obvious. When Anthony comes to John after a mission gone bad, displaying his true emotions rather than a calculated facade, John's feelings change.
They begin a covert affair, made all the more difficult by their positions and by the fact Anthony is so rarely in the country. But one day, two years after their first meeting, Anthony leaves for a mission and doesn't come back. John always knew their relationship would likely end this way, but he never forgets Anthony.
Now, twenty years later, as the Soviet Union crumbles, John finds evidence that indicates Anthony is still alive. Although retired, John puts everything he has into finding the love of his life...for a second time...