I’ve always been obsessed with clocks and time, but now it’s for a whole new reason. I don’t want him to leave. I was always scared of what would come when time ran out, but now I was afraid of what would leave when time ran out. My heart. I loved Garrison—though I was still too chicken to admit it out loud. Maybe it was because once I heard the words in the air they’d be ones I could never take back. He shifted beneath me and pulled me tighter into the shelter of his body... moreI’ve always been obsessed with clocks and time, but now it’s for a whole new reason. I don’t want him to leave. I was always scared of what would come when time ran out, but now I was afraid of what would leave when time ran out. My heart. I loved Garrison—though I was still too chicken to admit it out loud. Maybe it was because once I heard the words in the air they’d be ones I could never take back. He shifted beneath me and pulled me tighter into the shelter of his body. “Don’t want me to go?” The word “no” got trapped in my throat and refused to let me speak. Garrison sighed, well-aware of the scars I carried. “Let’s not think about it.” But I didn’t want to ignore it, and I didn’t want to just leave things unsaid. What if the FBI called tomorrow and demanded him back, he couldn’t refuse. I forced myself to gather up my courage and break down the last small barrier that separated us, and I said, “I love you.” I could almost see the wind snatch the words greedily, mockingly, as if to say, “No going back now.” Garrison was silent under me, barely moving or breathing. And then, he melted and let out a long sigh. “Thank God.” I held still for a moment, letting his words sink in. “Thank God?” I sat up on his chest and scrunched up my face. “That’s all you're going to say?” Laughing blue eyes met mine, as his hand reached behind my neck and pulled me down for a kiss. “I love you too, sugar.” less