With the Band Series by Sundae Leighton

I'm his little sister's best friend. He's the lead singer of the world's biggest rock band.Four years ago; Killian Hampton (the blued-eyed boy I had been in love with since forever) found me bleeding, broken, and hiding in his treehouse and it changed everything. He knows I play for the other team; but up until that moment, I wasn't aware that he did.Stolen kisses, dirty secrets, out of town dates, everything had to be hidden behind closed doors... moreI'm his little sister's best friend. He's the lead singer of the world's biggest rock band.Four years ago; Killian Hampton (the blued-eyed boy I had been in love with since forever) found me bleeding, broken, and hiding in his treehouse and it changed everything. He knows I play for the other team; but up until that moment, I wasn't aware that he did.Stolen kisses, dirty secrets, out of town dates, everything had to be hidden behind closed doors. What we did in the dark could not been seen in the light. I didn't want to hide; but I wanted him, and was willing to play by his rules if it meant I got to keep him. For a little while... before he shattered my life into pieces.Now Killian's back; only he's different.Empty. Mean. Dejected. Worn-out.I try to stay away. He's the villain in my story, no longer the hero. I attempt to convince myself the love I felt is gone; until it's too late, and I start to drown all over again.This book contains dark themes that might be triggering. It contains self-harm, drug and alcohol abuse, mental health issues, as well as LGBTIAQ+ hate that some readers might find troubling. Please read at your own risk. This is a love story first and always between two troubled boys who found one another when they needed it most. less

Maverick Frost may be the drummer for the biggest rock band in the world; but before that he was my best friend, my first love, and the one who shattered my entire world .Maverick changed everything between us the night he asked me to kiss him. After pushing my feelings away like a dark secret, it turned out he felt the same way. We spent that summer wrapped up in one another discovering things that I had only dreamed about... moreMaverick Frost may be the drummer for the biggest rock band in the world; but before that he was my best friend, my first love, and the one who shattered my entire world .Maverick changed everything between us the night he asked me to kiss him. After pushing my feelings away like a dark secret, it turned out he felt the same way. We spent that summer wrapped up in one another discovering things that I had only dreamed about. Maverick said he wanted forever with me, and then he snatched it all away. Those emerald eyes, that stark white hair. Gone before I even had a chance to say goodbye.Six years later I'm playing hockey for the Boston Terriers, but still I took a chance reconnecting with my best friend. Only he's not the same boy I fell in love with. He's angry; hostile and constantly on edge. I see bits and pieces of the old Maverick hidden beneath the surface. I want to dig them out, put them together, fix him and make him whole again. If he only he'd let me in.Maybe then we can have what we always dreamed about.*This book contains dark themes that might be triggering to some readers. It contains emotional, verbal and physical abuse, mental health issues, depression and suicidal thoughts, as well as LGBTQIA+ hate that some readers might find troubling. Please read at your own risk.* less

I broke my sobriety last night.I thought for sure that Matthias was going to leave me. I seem to ruin everything just by existing. I need him like the air I breathe. Matthias calms my demons with a simple touch of his hand, and the soothing way he speaks to me and tells me he loves me. I couldn't imagine my life without him. I might be borderline obsessed with the man, but you would be too if you were in my shoes.Yet, here he is; my Matthias... moreI broke my sobriety last night.I thought for sure that Matthias was going to leave me. I seem to ruin everything just by existing. I need him like the air I breathe. Matthias calms my demons with a simple touch of his hand, and the soothing way he speaks to me and tells me he loves me. I couldn't imagine my life without him. I might be borderline obsessed with the man, but you would be too if you were in my shoes.Yet, here he is; my Matthias. Holding me, saving me, and telling me he loves me like I didn't just ruin everything all over again. I need to make an honest man out of him once and for all. He puts up with so much of my nonsense. Without him I probably wouldn't be alive right now.Say yes, babe. Marry me. Here, today, right now. I don't need a big fancy wedding with our friends or family. I only need YOU. The man who makes my life worth living. The boy with the hazel eyes that loved me from afar until that fateful night. I finally gave into my own urges and kissed you and it changed everything...My ride or die. My forever love. Be my husband, make me the happiest man in the universe.*This book contains dark themes that might be triggering. It contains self-harm, drug and alcohol abuse, mental health issues. Please read at your own risk. This is a love story first and always between two troubled boys who found one another when they needed it most.* less

The hockey player and the rockstar; that's what we were supposed to be.Blake Duncan was going to be this award-winning musician and I would be the hot shot goalie. And we would be together, just like we had talked about. I wasn't supposed to go behind Blake's back, even if it was to save him from a life he didn't deserve. Blake had every right to be angry with me. I just never thought he would leave without saying goodbye.My life was never the same without him... moreThe hockey player and the rockstar; that's what we were supposed to be.Blake Duncan was going to be this award-winning musician and I would be the hot shot goalie. And we would be together, just like we had talked about. I wasn't supposed to go behind Blake's back, even if it was to save him from a life he didn't deserve. Blake had every right to be angry with me. I just never thought he would leave without saying goodbye.My life was never the same without him. My career was not nearly as amazing as his; not as bright and shiny, but I managed. I carried around guilt that was stifling me; until the night of the accident that changed everything. The only person I wanted to comfort me was Blake, my best friend and soulmate. Only he wasn't there. I was still alone. I was broken.Now my brother Jackson is getting married, and his fiancé just happens to be the drummer in Blake's band. Which means he'll be coming home; we'll see one another for the first time in years and it terrifies me. I'm not the same boy I was when he left. I'm angry and anxious. Riddled with PTSD from the accident. I'm scared to find out what he'll think when he sees me again. What if he found someone else to be what I couldn't?Blake's still beautiful. Sparkling stars on a dark night. And I still want him despite trying to stay away. When he tells me he still loves me, I want to say it back. But if I can't let him kiss me, how can we be together? I find myself slowly breaking all my rules for Blake. He makes me feel like myself again.For the first time in years, I find myself smiling, laughing, and hopeful. Maybe we can still have the future we wanted? Be together and live happily ever after. There is no one else that I want but Blake.Stars like Confetti takes place after Frost, and before Killian & Matthias. All books in this series should be read in order to avoid spoilers. Please be aware that this book contains PTSD, anxiety, suicidal talk and thoughts as well as alcohol abuse which may be triggering to some readers. Please read at your own risk. less

Dean Frost is the guitar player in the world's biggest rock band, and he's also the puzzle piece that was missing from my life.I thought one night would be enough, but I was wrong. Dean was something I never saw coming. The green-haired guitar player with the thousand-watt smile tilted my world upside down the very night we met.For the previous ten years I had kept my heart under lock and key. As captain of the Boston Terriers, I put hockey and my son above everything else. I had no social life... moreDean Frost is the guitar player in the world's biggest rock band, and he's also the puzzle piece that was missing from my life.I thought one night would be enough, but I was wrong. Dean was something I never saw coming. The green-haired guitar player with the thousand-watt smile tilted my world upside down the very night we met.For the previous ten years I had kept my heart under lock and key. As captain of the Boston Terriers, I put hockey and my son above everything else. I had no social life. No dating, no hookups, nothing. But there was something different about Dean. He was kind, funny, and unlike anyone else I had ever met. And my son adored him.Dean doesn't do anything halfway. Even though he's never been with a man before, he jumps in with both feet and eyes wide open. He's bratty at times, and pushes back when I pull away just to prove he wants to be part of my life. I'm terrified to get close to someone again. Scared that I'll end up heartbroken with another horrible loss. I'm convinced that Dean should be with someone else, someone closer to his own age, even though it breaks my heart. So, I do the only thing I can think of and I break his first.It takes me too long to realize I've made an unspeakable mistake, and it might already be too late.*All books should be read in order to avoid spoilers **Please be aware this book contains religious trauma, death of a spouse (off page), anxiety, panic attacks, and grief. Please read at your own risk. * less