For him, no wasn't an option Joining an "adult" club was supposed to just be research. Something to get me out of editing and into being a real writer. But, it ended up being more than I bargained for. There was so much I didn't know and he was all too eager to show me the way. I should have told him this was for work, that this was going to help me achieve my dream. It's just... every time I'm with him I can't think straight. The words get jumbled up and lost... moreFor him, no wasn't an option Joining an "adult" club was supposed to just be research. Something to get me out of editing and into being a real writer. But, it ended up being more than I bargained for. There was so much I didn't know and he was all too eager to show me the way. I should have told him this was for work, that this was going to help me achieve my dream. It's just... every time I'm with him I can't think straight. The words get jumbled up and lost. If I can't even remember the safeword, how am I suppose to tell him the truth? less